this was the post i stayed up late writing the night we found out there was a bambino on the way....
1 minute and 12 seconds. That’s how quickly my life changed on April 11, 2012. Most tests take 3 minutes…see the craziness of waiting that whole 3 minutes here…this time, it was 1 minute and 12 seconds before it was crystal clear:
We. Are. Pregnant.
I ran out of the bathroom to my sleeping husband (those who know him will laugh because this is so typical!), and screamed “Bobby! Bobby! BL! GET UP!” The poor man, he jumped up in a hurry afraid there was a fire in the house. Bless his heart.
“We’re pregnant! BL, we’re pregnant!!”
He looked at me with an adorable crooked grin and said “Really? We are?!” I showed him the test and immediately the tears started. BL was so sweet and held me and we laughed and cried. I said, “I hope it’s right…maybe I should test again” When you’re trying for a year and take negative test after negative test, you can’t help but be skeptical! So just to be sure, I took another test (luckily I peed in a cup so I didn’t have to wait 2 hours to pee again), and the second test showed both lines in less than 1 minute.
Bright. Pink. Lines!!
So here I sit, too excited to go to bed, yet so exhausted at the same time. God is so good. This is a miracle and something only our God is capable of. Throughout the last year, as I struggled with infertility, one song always seemed to come into my life. At my lowest moments, I would often turn on Pandora to get some worship music and I would hear “How Great is Our God” every single time! There were several Sundays when I would sit in church and just want to scream I was so angry that we were unable to conceive, and when I was my most upset, they would always play this song. I am telling you, the song came to me, over and over again, at just the right time. I never told anyone until just this last Sunday when we were on our way to church. We heard a little testimonial on the radio of an artist who had been struggling with infertility and the very next song was not surprisingly, “How Great is Our God” are you serious? I looked at BL and said “this is our infertility song. No matter what, we have to keep this attitude, we have to sing praises at the greatness of our God even when we struggle.” BL was such a great support, we had a wonderful conversation about using our infertility to reach others and give God glory…all the while having no idea we had a little one growing inside already. Oh my God, you are so good. Your love and your mercies are never-ending. Thank you for the blessing of a child, and I pray for the safety of our unborn child. May You God, be glorified during this entire pregnancy, and for all the days of our child’s life.
Holy smokes, we’re having a baby!