Tales of TTC {part two}

Significance of the Second Line

Waiting is so. Dang. Hard.  Whether it’s waiting for a simple answer, a deadline, a friend, a vacation or even the world to change {thank you John Mayer}, waiting is tough.  

If you’ve ever been like me, and waiting for the second line to appear in a HPT {Home Pregnancy Test} window, you know how tough it is to wait and you know the significance of that darn second line! You sit & wait.  You watch the clock.  You count down the seconds.  Your heart drops as the 3 minute mark passes and you think to yourself “maybe they meant 5 minutes on the instructions!” …all to say that even 20 minutes later, there is no second line.  

One nasty thing I already knew about myself, I care way too much about schedules.  Changing my plans and/or schedule will wreak havoc in my life if I let it.  I sometimes think God just laughs at my feeble attempts to control the schedule of my life, all-the-while waiting on me to give it up!!

{can anyone feel me here?!}

This morning I was reflecting on the amazing things I’ve learned from the book of James through Beth Moore’s Mercy Triumphs, and I was brought back to this passage:

Pretty powerful stuff huh?  He keeps telling us that there’s something He’s not telling us…

{Hello?! Earth to Chrissi.} 

So right there is the significance of the second line…or lack thereof…no second line means that there is something I don’t know.  {gulp} Something God is planning.  An ever present reminder that I need to align myself with His schedule, not my own.  He alone is in control.